Okay basically lately I’ve been mostly happy. But I came across something today and now I feel a need to rant. All people that I’m ranting about shall remain nameless.
How to begin? Liars. I despise liars. Why do I despise liars? Because one of the people that I trusted most, absolutely believed would never hurt me, is nothing but a liar. I think it’s funny that this person totally dropped me on my ass. And now “they” are apparently a wonderful person. I call bullshit. I personally know this person was feeling a lot of guilt over some things and while I think it would be nice to believe they’ve made a complete turnaround, I don’t think it’s true. Why not? Because if so, they would have had regard for another person’s feelings, including mine, and they didn’t. Now, it is as if I never met this person, never knew them, and nothing ever happened. I want to thank this person because the shit they put me through actually led me to meeting someone who truly is wonderful, who truly does care about me, and who is willing to fight for me, stand up for me, and protect me in every way possible. This other person, the one who I am finding it extremely hard to forgive, has carried on with all their friends, but has left me with nothing. I have not seen this person in quite awhile now. And like I said, while I would love to believe that this person has truly changed for the better, I don’t think they have. If they had, I feel like they would have at least offered an explanation to me for the way they treated me, and maybe even a apology. No matter what happned, no one deserves to be treated the way that I was. But have they come forward to say anything to me? No, and they obviously despise me to such a great degree that they don’t even want to admit to knowing me. Oh yes, should this person ever read this entry, let me say this: you are such a good person and we should all bow down to your great example. Please oh please, let us all be more like you. After all, wouldn’t this world be a better place if we were all total bastards?
wow talk abut venting… i hope everyone took away sharp objects from u while u were ranting.
ranting is good, and hey look at the bright side. u found out now and u know their true colors right?
oh come on… throw a name out there. what’s the worst that could happen? well, i’ll tell you. lawsuit. believe me, restraining orders don’t really help you in job interviews. but seriously, you might follow anonymous’s suggestion and stay away from sharp objects and probably firearms.
hrhm, well, I don’t know if I am just being vain or something in thinking that this might be in part about me, but I could convince myself that it could be. so oh well, I guess you will just have to suffer if it isnt.
bweh. I am fairly certain I am sorry for my part in what you went through, but even now, I think I would probably agree with you about changing, if I am one of the ones you were referring to, I will probably never change. I probably really am not capable of changing. I will always try to use people, mislead them, work them around for my own purposes and satisfaction. I will never care about anyone else, only ever for myself. but you did give me a lot to think about. and I have thought about it.
but I guess that is as much as I am willing to say in public for the moment, if you wish to talk further on something with me, then you can send a more private communication somehow, like a private message, or an email, or something. I don’t care. I am going to bed now. take luck, much fortune, and life, always.